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sabremeisterMy problem is, I'm a nice guy - one of the sort that notoriously finishes last.
This nice-guy-ness generally manifests itself in a willingness to help. Not for any particular reason, just to help, because I feel like helping. People often assume this involves some sort of ulterior motive, which isn't true. I just - help. As long as who I'm helping seems to deserve it.
However, I also have a core of pure evil bastard, and this sometimes shows through. I don't know which is more damaging - the nice-guy-ness, or allowing the evil bastard to show through (usually at an inopportune moment). Add this to paranoia and a mind that would make Machiavelli green with envy (buy only when it comes to the paranoia - f'rinstance, I might think "if I do A, will B think C, and if they do, would it be better to do D instead, or would that make them think E, in which case I should do F" - and strategy games), not to mention the self-esteem of a squashed hedgehog, and you get someone whose behaviour may sometimes seem weird, or annoying, or seemingly inexplicable. No - it's just me.
I'm an uncomplicated person, who can do a passable complicated when necessary.
This nice-guy-ness generally manifests itself in a willingness to help. Not for any particular reason, just to help, because I feel like helping. People often assume this involves some sort of ulterior motive, which isn't true. I just - help. As long as who I'm helping seems to deserve it.
However, I also have a core of pure evil bastard, and this sometimes shows through. I don't know which is more damaging - the nice-guy-ness, or allowing the evil bastard to show through (usually at an inopportune moment). Add this to paranoia and a mind that would make Machiavelli green with envy (buy only when it comes to the paranoia - f'rinstance, I might think "if I do A, will B think C, and if they do, would it be better to do D instead, or would that make them think E, in which case I should do F" - and strategy games), not to mention the self-esteem of a squashed hedgehog, and you get someone whose behaviour may sometimes seem weird, or annoying, or seemingly inexplicable. No - it's just me.
I'm an uncomplicated person, who can do a passable complicated when necessary.
